Familiaaaaaa!!!You wouldn´t guess what I did this week which has scarrrred me for life. Supposedly we were told that we were going to feed ducks for a service projects, but no.....we killed ducks and a few chickens, then we plucked the feathers off and took out its guts........I was scarrrred for life. It made me so sad because it was so much like the Holocaust....especially when I went with the Elders to choose the fat and big ducks to be taken to their death....then we would herd them out to a room and grab each one out one by one and hang them by their feet, slice them at their throats and let them die....after they die from there, we put them in boiling water. Luego, we pluck off their feathers off of their dead sad bodies. Me dio pena....me puso triste. Then at the same time, they were offering refreshments...ya...I couldn´t eat anything. I had to call in to cancel lunch. My stomach couldn´t handle it. So...every time I see or hear a duck or a chicken, I cringe....eating chicken....that´s worse. I will pick at the fried chicken wing, imagining plucking off its feathers at every detail.....It was terrible. I think I couldn´t eat for 3 days. My companion was concerned, but she is always concerned about me...sometimes too much....like one day we woke up..well I was already wake and I told her that I couldn´t sleep all night because I was sick in my stomach. Then the first thing she tells me is that I need to go to the hospital... -____- she does a lot of things I don´t quite understand to be honest. Jaja. For example one night she wakes me up like at 2 in the morning saying my name. "Hermana Santeco?" and I would respond, "hmm?" and she told me...."Nada". Nada?????!!! I woke up for nada.....jajaja...but back to the ducks...yeah...I don´t know how I´ll go back to eating those poor things. I can remember hearing them cry and scream. It was brutal. I almost refused to eat any meat for the rest of my life..
I can´t believe I have been away from home for 5 months now. It really goes by so fast. I swear I just made 4 months and now...5??? As for the pareo, don´t worry about it. President gave me permission to teach, but it won´t be so often that I will be doing it. I have skirts and such. I will manage. But send me some more food! haha. That I want for sure.
Speaking of language capabilities. It improves more and more each day. We will eat at members homes the weekends and they will tell me that I am speaking more than I have before. Mostly because well...they have seen me when I had just arrived here. Its getting better. Its not perfect, but I have grown so much in the language and the gift of tongues. I hate thinking about going home and not being able to speak the language so often...and so I´m telling all my spanish speaking friends to help me. lol I can´t lose this language. I already planned it out that I am going to teach my children, English, Spanish, and sign language.